012915 journal

January 29 Casa journal

It's a beautiful day here, maybe 80 degrees, sunny but with a fresh gentle breeze. I sat for half hour at the "overlook" meditation pavilion looking out at the amazing scenery. Sky with blue patches and large, fleecy clouds, a huge sky!

This morning I sat in the Entity's current, this afternoon went through the line. Today Amy, Markus, John and Yolanda had operations. They are all in bed sleeping. Darcie had one yesterday afternoon and is now up and around.... I have an operation tomorrow, on knee and shoulder. I don't know about Nina. After the line, about 4, I thought longingly of swimming as after surgery I won't be able to for several days, but I was very tired and just came back here.   My energy is low; I think they have been working on me yesterday and today. So I'm writing a bit until dinner and early to bed.

Current: One of my highest intentions is to understand how to bring together the many facets I feel led to teach: vipassana. Dharma, a path of service, understanding of karma and polarity, the deeper meaning of mediumship, not just as a channel as I am for Aaron or the Mother, but the deeper implications of our interconnections and doing that work skillfully and free of ego (as much as possible), all committed to service for the highest good (which commitment is a hallmark of positive polarity. I'm exploring the idea of  a year long class starting in September, with several teachers teaching components, how we can bring this all together.

In Current I start by sitting quietly, but yesterday and again today, after some time, spirit begins to share some ideas. I have no pen for note taking (eyes are closed) so need to trust the ideas will remain with me at some level. They will.

Aaron gave me an interesting image around responsible mediumship. Start with two clear, clean tubes. Fill one with dirty rocks; pour clear spring water through both tubes and invite people to drink. No one will want the one with dirty rocks! Why would we even offer it?

We are each that clean, clear tube. What "dirty rocks" do we store and then try to hand out? What practices can we use to 1) cleanse/ purify the rocks and 2) avoid putting them in there in the first place? This question takes us full circle: intentions; sila; polarity; service; co-creation; vipassana that perceives what has stuck into the clear tube; metta and other practices of the loving heart. We start with the intention to service to all beings (positive polarity) and because of that intention, we watch where we get off track and attend to it. In this way we gain in the skill to say no to negativity in the world and in ourselves (and with love); to be clear mediums; to deepen in wisdom that leads to liberation; and to hold open the heart.  This is one 'perhaps' base for the class.

So these are some of my reflections, early in this trip. Sitting many hours a day certainly does open doors! I'm also just feeling still and peaceful. Hopefully the surgery will address some of the body needs and pain.

After  surgery tomorrow, I will not write, Maybe I will write Saturday, maybe not until Sunday, This operation isn't on my eyes so I may read and write, but want to stay quiet and inward-focused  too, for that first 48 hours.

My group flies out on Sunday. I look forward to having them arrive here Monday morning. Safe travels to you all.