Brazil journal 2014 Post 9 Jan 30 Feb 1.doc

I did get back to sleep until 7, ate breakfast and went to the Casa. I sat in the garden half hour, then had a double crystal bath, 45 minutes. I had an odd experience when I first lay down. I had left my backpack right by the door and an image came into my mind of someone opening the door and taking it. I reasoned that was fear, and meditated to release the fear, asked “why would I want to create that drama?” Some insights into the ways we do create and manifest such drama.

Once the fear was released and I felt surrounded by positive energy, I still got up and moved it, a 30 second action. “Trust God and tie your camel.”  

There was very strong energy; I don't usually feel that in a crystal bath.  I asked the entities for all the healing I wanted. I'm told they can do 9 surgeries at once. Running down the body: Ears/ eyes/ left shoulder/ stenosis/ whatever they are doing with the spider bite area/ knees/ circulation in lower leg/ sore/ whatever else. I held each area in my heart for a minute, and envisioned my higher self; strong, graceful, pain-free, whole! I felt myself wrapped in love and that they were already working on it all.

I said my highest intention was to offer them a clear, lovely instrument to do whatever work I was offered, to be a clear medium for spirit, to teach, to love my friends and family, etc. I could feel energy at each place.

Aaron began to talk about wholeness, adding to what he said at the waterfall. Not quoting him, just some that I remember. We were all once of crystalline essence, united, uncontracted. When we agreed to come forth in a carbon based body, it was with understanding that this organic being would contract and expand, would have ‘fight or flight' reflex, etc. and that the sentient being experience would give us the opportunity to not enact that reflex, just to watch and release. Therein is our growth;  free will and conscious choice of positive polarity. He said this is why the work with the Mother is so vital, remembering who we are. Aaron says he will channel his words, or conscious channel later this weekend on the recorder and send to Janice to transcribe.

I sat in the garden a short while after the crystal bath, feeling very shaky; I do think they worked on the eyes too. Light seemed very bright. I spent some time enjoying a pink orchid growing on a tree in the garden, so much light and energy, vivid colors. I saw Amy and she said she would bring my bike back so took a taxi back.

Lunch time.

Now 1:15; showered; put white blanket (I brought with me, small fleece one) on the bed. Time to close the computer and head to the Casa. I'm feeling much gratitude.

Friday evening Jan. 31 now.  Reading little, so typos left in,  Operation was short, about 25 minutes. Taxi back here and to bed. I slept all afternoon, dinner and slept again from 7:30 until 6:30 this morning; breakfast, and slept again from 8 to 12. Lunch, and dozed on and off this afternoon, maybe slept 2 hours, showered  and cleaned up my room a bit. There's not a lot to tell.

Now Saturday Feb 1 after dinner. Last night, to sleep right after dinner; this morning, group sharing, very much from people's hearts. I slept 3 hours after lunch; at 4:30 a period with Aaron, conscious channeled, not bringing in energy. Talk and Q/A; Transcript will be available.  Dinner; 6 people leaving tonight or early AM. Two more arrive Monday.

Two in the group, who met here (in my group) in 2011, became engaged this afternoon. I am very happy for them and wish them great joy and love together.

So, back to inward things, surgery, what I have been exploring and learning.

Still not reading; typos will remain for now.

On Wednesday morning, waiting to take my group, and myself, through 2nd time line, I was feeling very shaky and sat on a bench in the garden. I felt small stabbing pains in my lower abdomen, not bad pain, just occasional repetitive little stabs.  I was very shaky, could feel the Entities' energy and also anesthetic., and having left instructions to someone to call me when the 2nd time line began, I lay down on my therma-rest pad on a bench and slept for an hour. I helped my group (8 going through line) and then my turn. Dr Augusto was incorporated. I love this being and trust him deeply. I asked in good Portuguese for help with shoulder pain, and wanted to show sore on my leg and ask him to cure it, but he just said “operation Thursday afternoon, and sent me on. I sat in the garden again for half an hour, then came back to the pousada. That afternoon, a 6 hour Current! I was in the front row where energy is very strong, and felt them working on me, and also the whole group energy, healing for all, such strong energy and light., This place really is a portal between heaven and earth, where that light flows through.

They worked more on me Wednesday night (more experience of tiny cutting, occasional but strong enough to wake me, like a pinch) and I didn't sleep well. A lot of body pain. Thursday morning I decided to sleep a bit later, went to the Casa, sat in the garden (where the abdominal cutting continued) , then followed a leading to have 2 crystal baths. I rarely experience much with these, though intellectually I know something is happening. Thursday morning the experience was profound. I felt them working, also saw and felt many spirit presences. When I got up, I felt like I had just has surgery. I sat in the garden a few minutes, found someone to ride my bike home, and took a taxi back, rested and showered, ready for afternoon operation.  All day also strong ‘cleansing' bowels pouring out...

I was first in, with Heather's help, sat next to Josie Ravenwing, enjoying her energy. Then focused in, asking for help with EVERYTHING.  I am told they can do up to nine operations at one time! Hand on my heart; eyes, ears, sinus and cough, shoulder pain and tendon problem, stenosis, knees, muscle weakness, sore on leg, circulation. Ask for it all!  My deeper prayer was that this body be healed sufficiently to be a clear instrument for service to the Light and that my path of service be shown to me.

The surgery seemed short and I didn't feel a lot, but at one point tried to open my eyes to see what was happening and literally could not open them. Then someone tapped me, time to go. Roann lovingly took my Rx and got my herbs (as I had done for her the week before; but I am the guide, and now my groups was so lovingly caring for me). Others were waiting to wheel John back from surgery in his wheelchair. Taxi back, to bed, and slept until dinner, ate, (meals brought to me these first 24 hours by angel Terri who went out to the store to get me yogurt as I felt I could not eat much else. I slept from 7:30 to 6:30 AM. Breakfast (another yogurt) and slept again all morning. Lunch and slept some more, but not all afternoon, maybe 2 or 3 hours and also, showered and took a quick look at email. To dining room for dinner. To bed right after dinner and slept all night!

By Friday night, after the 24 hours (mostly sleeping)  and a few more, I had felt not much was happening. But when I got up this morning there are profound changes. My shoulder feels 90% better. I have taken very little pain med these 24 hours. Dr A gave me a steroid injection just before I left Michigan, and it worked the first 2 days, but with the travel, shoulder was again very painful the past 2 weeks. Now it is almost pain-free as long as  I don't move it a .lot. Aaron says to keep it more still; there are stitches there. The sore on my leg isn't gone, but much smaller, healing, confirmed by Y, a medical doctor who is part of my group. The cough is completely gone. The small remaining pain from the wisdom tooth extraction, and in sinus, is gone.

Most pronounced change, this morning I first felt i couldn't walk. My knees felt week and my whole body ‘unwired' from its traditional patterns. I felt like a puppet with strings and I didn't know how to move anything. It was hard to walk to breakfast. Gradually, with some walking, ti seems to have clicked. People tell me I'm 3 inches taller, walking upright for the first time in years. There is still some pain form the stenosis if I stand too long, but I can walk short distances with pain and that bending over.

Aaron said to me last night that there are many stitches in the abdomen, that I can feel too. He said there was much dead tissue from the brown recluse toxin,. I know from reading that it can do that,. He said the snipping I felt was the entities removing dead tissue, sewing clean tissue together to give potentially strong an healthy muscle through the abdomen and pelvic floor. He said they worked on the spine, the stenosis, but not a lot, that the muscles need to be there to support the spine work, and he thinks they will do more on the spine after the stitches come out next Thursday from the muscles and other tissue.

Sitting here right now, typing, it is the first time in 6 months I haven't been in pain!

Many reflections too. Aaron has been talking a lot about healing; what it is and what it is not. I've been envisioning my higher self, Aasha, a radiant being who moves gracefully and with ease, heart open, energy bright with joy and love, and inviting this human expression  to come as close to that perfect template as is possible. Earlier today, walking, I asked my body to remember how it felt to move as a seven year old, free of pain and with easy balance and to move that way. I felt myself able to take longer strides.

It's 9:15, so more tomorrow. In the AM, Casa Sunday service and then two crystal baths, lunch and maybe a swim. Then back here to rest.