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Dharma & Meditation: Deepening Practice November 4, 2008 Class Four
Keywords: sila/moral awareness
Aaron: Good evening. My
love to you all. I am Aaron.
There have been many
anxious thoughts during the sitting, and also quite a bit of
spaciousness and equanimity. You are to be honored for holding that
space. (it is election night and after class we'll all be
watching the returns)
The focus in this class
is sila, an aspect of the Eightfold Path. We're talking about the
different aspects of the dharma, not to recognize them intellectually
but to ask, "How does this inform my life and my practice? And how
do my life and practice inform my understanding and enactment of this
aspect of the dharma?"
In the second chapter
of your reading (The Sound of Silence; "No
Exit"), at the beginning of that chapter Ajahn Sumedho speaks
about the Four Noble Truths and the three levels of understanding of
each of these truths. The first is simply the conceptual level, "This
is what it is", and then at the second level, moving deeper into
the understanding of it. This is the direct experience of it, getting
to know it not just in the mind but in depth. And finally the full
understanding.
If I might use a simple
metaphor, you've all experienced minor thirst at times. If we said,
"This is thirst," you'd say, "Oh, yes, I know about thirst.
I've heard about thirst and I've experienced it." But then if
you went 36 hours with nothing to drink, you would have a deep direct
experience of thirst, different from your previous experience. It's
not conceptual any more; you know it in every part of the body, the
body's cry for water.
And then you're
transported to an area of the world where there's a terrible
drought, where many people are suffering from prolonged thirst, where
the streams have been fouled by pollution, where the rains have not
come and the earth is parched and cracked. Children are sick and
dying; plants are sick and dying. You see the whole cycle of thirst
and drought, and of misuse of the planet. Different aspects that
cycle have contributed not to the lack of water in the village
springs which have been fouled by carelessness. So you deeply
understand.
So we could look at
these 3 stages in this way: to taste it and say, "Yes, I have a
sense of what that is," to go deeply into it, and then to
understand the causes and conditions of it, and how it relates to
other things; to fully know it.
So we look at
suffering, or dukkha, and those 3 levels. We look at the causes of
suffering, the second Noble Truth. We look at freedom. And now we are
looking at the Path and this particular aspect of the Path that we
call sila.
What is sila? The
translation that's often offered is "moral awareness." These
are words. What does moral awareness really mean? This is not the
Biblical kind of statement, "Thou shalt not." It's not a set of
rules that you learn and observe simply because you've been told
this is what you're supposed to do, or if you do this you'll go
to Heaven. Rather, this precious sila comes from a place of deeply
knowing the inter-being of self and other.
I had an experience in
a very long ago lifetime, when I was young in spirit. A younger and
smaller boy in my village and I got into a fight. He had said rude
things about my mother. I suppose this is a reason why young boys
often fight. My father had died when I was young so my mother did
manly labor, as it might be called, as well as taking care of the
children and preparing food. She worked very hard to take care of our
family. My father's brothers helped her, but still she had to be
strong and powerful, not soft and feminine as were many of the women
in the village. So the boy had said, "She's strong like a man,"
and instead of taking that as a compliment, I took it as an insult
and began to fight with him. I did not restrain myself, as would have
been wise, so we got into a tussle and I was bigger. I pushed him and
he fell in such a way that he broke his arm.
Our village elders were
very wise. They did not punish but tried to use our life situations
for teaching. So after the immediate first aide was given, a splint
was on the arm and a few days had passed so it was not so painful,
they called us both. These elders first talked about what had
happened, and then they said that what they felt would be an
appropriate use of this situation––not punishment, an appropriate
use of this situation–was that since the smaller boy could
temporarily not help his mother and father by going out and doing
farm work and heavy work, that for those 6 to 10 weeks until the arm
was healed, I would go everyday to his home and do the heavy work
that he always did. And he in turn would come to my house and help my
mother every day. He would do everything that one could do with one
arm. He would help her to tend the children, to stir the cooking
pots, to carry a bucket of water, to keep the fire burning, to go out
and pick berries and nuts and other kinds of food.
So each of us spent the
next 2 months doing this work, and of course we both gained deep
insight into each other's lives. I saw the reason for his statement
about my mother; it was really not meant as an insult. Rather, it was
a statement of his own concern because his mother was rather weak,
frail, and dependent, and needed her children to take care of many
things. I saw how that was for him. And he saw how it was for my
mother, who had so much responsibility with a number of young
children. I was the oldest. So he began to cherish her strength.
When this time was
over, we became best friends and throughout that life we were really
closer than brothers, caring for each other. Both of us were far less
prone to judgment, to the judging mind's arising and to acting out
the judging mind when it arose.
As I look back, this
for me was the first deep opening into sila, deeply understanding how
things are, and coming to the inner commitment to do no harm based on
that knowing of our interconnections with each other and our deep
intent not to harm another.
This sila is precious,
it's very beautiful. In many Buddhist countries, children are not
taught to meditate at a young age, and even adolescents may not
meditate, but sila is the heart of their practice. They are not
taught, "Now don't steal, it's wrong," they are taught, "When
you take something from another that is not freely given, you hurt
everybody," and they are asked to regard the ways they would hurt
everybody.
When the alms are
given, always the young children come out to the road to offer the
alms to the monk and these sometimes are young children who
themselves may not have as much to eat as they would like. But
they're taught here, every being's needs must be respected.
Children in these cultures do not tie tin cans to dogs' tails. They
do not stomp on ants just because they're there. They do not
disrespect their elders.
And these, I don't
know whether to say actions or lack of unwholesome actions, this
comes not because someone is standing over them with a stick and
saying, "If you do this you'll be punished," but because from
an early age they are taught reverence for all life including their
own. They understand that the well-being of one is connected to the
well-being of all. They realize that if they see the snake
outside––often the kitchen is not in the house but in a small
sheltered building; I don't want to call it a building, it won't
have walls, it will be an open-air kitchen with a sheltered roof to
keep the rain off––if they see a snake there, well, the snake is
catching the rodents that would eat their food. Yes, it's a
poisonous snake. They have to be careful of it. A three-year-old
knows what kind of snake will kill her. She knows to step back when
she sees it, but not to scream out, "There's a snake!" But to
raise her hands and say thank-you to the snake and know that it's
doing its job. There is reverence for all life.
What I want to ask you
then is how sila feels to you. You have cultural conditioning to
overcome. You've been raised in this Thou Shalt Not kind of
culture. I'm not saying there's something wrong with that; it's
fine to tell people, "Don't kill, don't steal, don't lie,
don't cheat." But you have not been given the opportunity to
uncover the foundations of sila, and thus you don't have that
foundation for your practice.
When children or young
people begin finally to meditate in a Buddhist country––I'm
talking about some time ago, I don't know how it is today, but 500
years ago––when the child began finally to meditate, the child
was so firmly grounded in sila that a lot of negative thought did not
arise. There wasn't a lot of jealousy, pride, impatience or greed.
It came up; certainly it came up sometimes. But when it did, instead
of saying, "No, I won't be angry, I won't be greedy," and
trying to stifle it, they just said, "Ah, here is this energy
arising in me." And so the practice that we try to teach you came
so much more easily to these children, because they were not raised
to be beaten when they were angry but rather to sit and watch the
arising of anger with an open heart, and to take care of the anger
until it resolved itself, for the good of all beings. They learned to
do this, not because they shouldn't be angry but with clear
seeing. "This is unwholesome for all beings. And ultimately it
brings suffering back to me. So I will take care of this emotion
until it resolves itself."
Sila then in a very
real way becomes a refuge. Can you see how that would be? It's a
place where you can rest when there is strong aversion or grasping,
and mindfulness, sati, notes it. "Here is grasping." Right there
with grasping is that which does not grasp, and yet the grasping is
still present, or the aversion, or the fear.
Coming back to sila as
a refuge, one rests in this deepest intention to do no harm and the
understanding that the one that you want to take something from or
the one you want to punch, they are yourself. They're just another
aspect of yourself, that you are truly all connected.
I'm so grateful for
growing up in that culture in that lifetime and for the wisdom of the
elders, who did not yell at us or beat us for fighting but simply
gave us each appropriate tasks, to teach us.
So I want to ask you,
we'll take a few minutes to stretch and then come back into the
circle. This is not something you've done a lot of thinking about
so what you say is just what comes to you. In what way does sila
already inform your life and your practice, and how could it be more
of a support? What can you do to nurture this true sila? Not just
goodness or moral purity but truly sila as interconnection and
non-harm?
I'm going to release
the body and Barbara will lead the discussion. Five minutes now, to
stretch.
Aaron: People have
asked me do I have a preferred candidate. You have all voted so I
feel free to express myself. One candidate to me clearly seems more
directed in openheartedness and care for all beings, much less
grounded in fear. So it is my fervent hope that he will win this
election because I think that he has the potential to guide you into
a path of much deeper peace in this country and in the world.
People asked him
which candidate is that and he remarked that votes in this country
are private, but they all know which one he means.
(recording ends)
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