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Casa Group Workshop December 10, 2005 Westport, CT
December 10, 2005 - Aaron's talk to Friends of the Casa - Westport, CT. This day was part of a weekend workshop in
Connecticut. On this day all the 25 participants had been to Casa de Dom Inacio, the healing center of John of God in Brazil.
Barbara: Welcome. I'm Barbara Brodsky. I'm profoundly deaf in both ears. If you can't hear me, please let me know. I
know how loud my voice is but I don't know if there is an airplane flying overhead. If you can't hear, let me know. Aaron
probably does know if there is an airplane flying over and will speak up but I can't. This is my husband Hal and he is here to
fingerspell. We don't use full sign language but just spelling the first letter of each word. So when there is some dialogue
with you and Aaron you'll talk and Hal will fingerspell it to me.
Our plan for today is to start with just some simple introduction and then I will move into a trance and Aaron will take over
the body and will talk to you. He wants to start with the bigger picture, and where the Casa and your work there fits into that
bigger picture. There will be time for him to talk, time for some dialogue with him, lunch, some other breaks. In the afternoon
and opening talk about some of the deeper energetic workings of the Casa, some of the questions you've all had. How do the
entities operate, what happens with that hemostat in the nose? We'll have a lot of time for dialogue and questions; we've
purposely left the day relatively unstructured because we know you'll have many questions and we want to leave a lot of room for
those questions.
I lost my hearing in 1972; I had perfect hearing until then. It obviously was a traumatic experience. I had just given birth
to our first child. They don't know exactly what went wrong, maybe hormone changes in the body from pregnancy. For some reason
the blood vessels became constricted and there was no oxygen flow to the middle ears, so the nerves died. So there was no
hearing and there was no balance. It was a very difficult time: I couldn't walk, I couldn't hear, and I was so dizzy that I
couldn't even focus to see, to read. It was very hard for us to communicate with each other, to figure out how to take care of
the baby and so forth, very scary.
I coped well with it. I had already been meditating at that time for many years and my spiritual practice supported me, I
continued to meditate. But I shut my feelings aside; I shut grief aside, and anger, in order to cope. And I paid a high price
for that, because I separated myself from myself. So on one level I seemed to be living my life skillfully. On another level
everything was closing in and I could feel that closing in. The more I shut myself out from myself, the more dishonesty, the
more separation, the less I could find any kind of wholeness in myself.
I prayed for help, I was feeling very stuck. I don't know what kind of help I was expecting but it certainly was not for a
discarnate spiritual entity to appear. There was really little in my prior adult life to lead me into this. I wasn't a new-ager,
Even the word channeling was foreign to my vocabulary. My religious affiliation was as a Quaker, which still is my formal
religious affiliation. So I was sitting in my living room the day after this prayer for help, and a spirit appeared. I could see
him: long white hair, white beard, deep blue eyes, high cheek bones; a somewhat biblical looking figure. I could feel his
energy. You know how it is when your back is to a door and somebody walks into the room. Without hearing them you can feel the
energy. It was very clear to me that something was there. I got up and went into the kitchen to make a cup of tea. If I could
have passed it off and just said "ah I'm hallucinating" it would have been easier in a lot of ways. But I knew I wasn't
hallucinating and that if I was experiencing it, it was real. I didn't do drugs, I was emotionally relatively stable and I
didn't hallucinate. So the alternative was real.
I came back, I felt his presence again, I meditated a bit. I said "who are you, why are you here?" He said "you asked for
help". I sat there for the rest of that morning meditating, didn't want to talk to him. The next day he was back. So I said "ok,
I asked for help you're here, how are you going to help me?" He said "you're suffering, let's start there, let's look at the
nature of this suffering".
What he pointed out to me in the following weeks was how much I was blaming the deafness itself for my suffering. I believed
if only I wasn't deaf everything would be fine, that kind of thinking. Certainly the deafness was a catalyst for it, but what
was really creating the suffering was the grasping, the fear, feeling so alone inside, wanting it so much to be different. There
was so much fear and so much grasping and then condemnation of myself saying "it should be ok". So I really was putting myself
out of my heart, no compassion for my situation, just, "stuff it and cope."
What I learned was him those first 2 months was profound. I shifted from a place where there was so much fear I couldn't go
to a gathering, I couldn't even have lunch with 2 friends because if they started to talk with each other so much tension, fear,
and rage, really, came up. I'd see tem talk and the thought, "What are they saying?" became an enormous grasping impulse, then
anger at myself that I couldn't let it be. We'd be in a restaurant, one friend asking another to pass the salt or looking on the
menu, asking, "are you going to have the chicken or the tuna salad." "What are you saying?!" So much grasping. As I got to know
Aaron and to trust him, he asked me, "watch the fear, watch grasping as an object." This was already how I meditated. watching
what came into the mind and body and noting, "Here is tension in the body; it has arisen out of conditions. Here is fear; here
is an angry thought." I had learned to observe body sensations and thoughts as objects, not disassociating from them but not
building a personal identity and stories around them. So I'd been doing this form of meditation for many years already but I had
not been able to apply it to the experiences around the deafness because they were so difficult.
So Aaron said, "It is no different; here is not hearing, what is the experience of not hearing, before all the stories come?"
And I could see what he meant, not hearing is just not hearing. It's like we have an itch; an itch is just an itch. The impulse
to scratch the itch is completely different. The aversion to the itch is completely different. In not hearing, just not hearing;
in aversion to not hearing, just aversion, no judgment needed, no stories of poor me or what will happen? That's fear and taking
it out of the moment. In this moment just not hearing.
So the whole thing opened up and the miracle was that after a couple of months there was just not hearing. When people opened
their mouth to talk there was just not hearing but all the stories didn't come and all the grasping didn't come. It was still
painful sometimes but I was no longer suffering in the same way. It was painful because I would look at my 3 children and wish
how much I could hear them. Our lives do bring us pain but there is a big difference between pain and suffering. Pain happens,
suffering we have a choice about: how are we relating to the pain? So there was an enormous shift, Hal could see it in me. And
then friends began to ask me to talk to Aaron? People came with questions for him. At first there were yes and no answers. And
then there was a longer answer. I said, "Aaron I don't know how to do this." He said, "Just listen to my thoughts and say them
out loud". I did that and somebody said to me, "Oh you're channeling." "What is 'channeling'?", I asked.
At that point I was a sculptor and I taught sculpture at University of Michigan. I had spent my entire college and adult life
getting to this point where I was a "successful sculptor" selling works, getting commissions, getting some name for myself,
invited into shows. It's very interesting to me as I look back that it didn't matter. It was very clear this is the work I took
birth for. So I made a shift that year after I met Aaron, and just began to teach the meditation practice which I had been doing
for many years but which he was helping me to find ways to articulate, and channeling Aaron.
Around that work within a year or two, a non-profit organization Deep Spring Center grew up, Deep Spring Center for
Meditation and Spiritual Inquiry. We hold classes and retreats, I'm the guiding teacher but there are 15 other teachers. We
teach in many different venues: in the community, in hospice, in prisons not channeling, just teaching meditation. But for
almost everybody there Aaron is a primary teacher and he's what holds Deep Spring together. I am so grateful to him as my
teacher. It's really transformed my life. It's been just an amazing experience.
I teach all over the world. It's wonderful to come to places like this, just sharing Aaron in this way. I see him
transforming people's lives and it's beautiful to watch. So I'm very grateful for where my life has taken me. The deafness at
this point, is simply part of the path that took me to where I am right now and to the ability to do the work I am doing. It
still challenges me at times; one of my sons is a professional musician. He writes his own music and words and he performs. I
saw him performing on a stage last month in front of hundreds of people. I was sitting up close I could see him but I can't lip
read from that distance and I wish so much I could hear his voice. So there is still some sadness but he sings for me privately,
he writes down the words and music and plays the songs slowly so I can follow them. I've got a sense of how he must sound. But I
do see the deafness also as a gift. Our lives bring us many gifts and they sometimes come in odd shapes; we don't recognize them
as gifts at first. It takes time for that.
Through many years of deafness people had been suggesting to try this or that for healing. In the beginning I did and then I
saw there was a franticness to it, grasping. And I put it aside and for many years I just said no, when the right thing comes
along I'll know it. Somebody I don't know, - I got on her mailing list "by accident" - sent me an email about a trip to John of
God. I read this and went to the website and I said "that's it" that's what I've been looking for! There was an immediate
resonance with Joao's picture. I made the decision to go there almost immediately. And it surprised both of us (looks at Hal)
because for so many years I had just said ok, I'm deaf that is how it is for now. But it had become clear to me in the years
just before that email, that I was ready to release the deafness, ready to hear again. And I understood that it was possible
although medically the doctors say of course, not possible. So I went through the list on a website of all the Casa guides, read
about each of them. Found Heather's name and also picked out a couple of others, emailed these three or four people and when
Heather wrote back it was very clear she was the person I needed to be working with. It was clear to me immediately that we had
some kind of teach-learn connection together. So this is how I come to be here.
At this point I am simply going to let Aaron come into the body and talk to you. Let me say one more thing before Aaron comes
up. For most of the years channeling Aaron I did what was called conscious channeling. This meant that I was in a light trance
where I could hear his thoughts and take them, one fragment of thought at a time, and phase it in words and send it out. So it
was a cooperative effort. Doing that, both Aaron's and my own vibrational frequency were in the body. It created a lot of
dissonance in the body. I was exhausted, it was hard. In Feb, 2005, my last trip to the Casa, I asked for help with channeling.
I felt they are experts on this; they use Joao's body as lightly and gracefully as possible. They changed the channeling process
completely. They said both of us cannot be in the body at the same time without tearing it apart; I have to get out before Aaron
comes in; then he uses the body. It's really eased things, it's been wonderful. They are wonderful teachers. So Aaron will
incorporate, as they phrase it at the Casa, and talk. I'll need a few minutes, and ask you to meditate with me as we make this
shift.
Aaron: My blessings and love to you all. I am Aaron. I greet you in love and in light and thank you for your presence
here today. I would begin with the admonition if what I speak does not resonate with your own deepest truth please lay it aside.
You are as wise and radiant as I am. So if something is discordant to your truth, lay it aside; trust yourselves. I can only
speak from my own perspective. We are all of the brother or sister hood of Light. We are one in that. It is your love and your
radiant heart that have brought you here. I cherish and respect that in each of you. They say the eyes are the windows of the
soul and I find that to be true. (Pause as Aaron looks around at participants.) It is a great joy to look into each of
your souls.
There is so much I would like to share with you today, we would need two weeks. Yet we do have time to cover some very
important areas of thought. I know many of you come with questions about your experiences at the Casa. This afternoon I hope to
have time to go deeply into those questions. I do want to start with the bigger picture. Who am I? Who are the Entities? Who are
you? Beside the personal healing work, why are you here? Here to day, here in the incarnation, here as friends who have visited
the Casa. Besides your own personal healing what has drawn you to the Casa?
I called you brothers and sisters of light. There is a vast brother/sisterhood of light - beings that are deeply committed to
the transition of earth into a higher vibrational frequency, and a higher level of consciousness. In a Universe in which there
is much chaos, discordance, and darkness, the earth is a grand experiment at bringing into expression the nonduality of Light
and darkness, and seeing how darkness opens into Light. Light and darkness are not dual with each other, you must understand
this at the start. Darkness is not dual with the light but is simply increasing absence of light. That which is the darkest will
one day come into the light just as a room that has lain dark for thousands of years becomes light when you open the shutters.
But meanwhile there are many beings who are quite attached to darkness and through that darkness create much pain, much
suffering, not only on the earth but on many planes. In response to those who are attached to darkness and contraction, those
that you know as the Archangels co-created with the elementals this planet you call earth; holding it in a high vibrational
frequency of love.
There was a non-intervention policy set around the earth almost immediately upon its creation, so that negative polarity
could not come in and create havoc. And yet as part of the truth of the light we honor free will. Therefore positivity can hold
a force field around the earth but if any being wishes to break through that force field we do not stop them; they have free
will. And so negativity did break that force field, and has penetrated into the earth. I remind you again when I speak of
negativity, I mean nothing that is absolutely evil, but that which carries intention to hold a lower vibration of increasingly
negative polarity, and a contracted energy.
Through eons, some sentient beings upon the earth have worked with spirit to raise the vibrational frequency of sentient
consciousness, and of the earth itself, to make it increasingly inhospitable to negativity. At the same time, there has been no
fear of that negativity, only recognition of it as teacher. If there were no mealy apple, how would you appreciate the firm,
sweet taste of the crisp apple? Yet we acknowledge that the mealy apple does not nourish, and leaves a sour taste ion the mouth.
It is unpleasant.
The intelligent beings of earth have expressed various level of consciousness; some of these are familiar to you through
traditional teachings. Consciousness-expressions such as that of Piaget, talk about these levels of consciousness. He uses the
terms, magical consciousness, mythical consciousness, and rational consciousness which is where earth has sat for so long.
Beyond the rational is vision-logic consciousness, that consciousness that is just barely capable of perceiving beyond the
physical senses, and onto psychic consciousness, which brings in the non-physical senses and the ability to trust those senses.
Earth is on route through this whole array of consciousness, on route to what might be called Christ or Buddha consciousness,
and to finally non-dual consciousness. As we speak of these levels, it is important to remember that what I describe is like a
building where all the floors are already in place. On what level do you reside? Thus, you do not create non-dual or cosmic
consciousness, only remember it and how to raise yourself to it.
Many of you have participated in a very conscious way in that transition to the remembrance of and living in higher
consciousness through your own spiritual practices. So when I say "non-dual consciousness" it's not just a concept for you but
many of you have tasted that non-dual, where nothing is separate. On the relative level you are separate human beings; we don't
deny that. On the ultimate level there is just One, and the transition of consciousness to remember that One. The transition of
earth into a higher density eases the way for knowing the One, just as the knowing opens the door to higher earth density.
This process is something in which you and many beings are participating. As part of its service, the entire
brother/sisterhood of Light offers the teachings of light and love in many different ways, so as to be accessible to each of you
in the way that you can best hear it. This is not new. Jesus was of that brotherhood; the Buddha was of that brotherhood; the
teachings of the Druids, the Essenes, these are all part of the teachings of this brother/sisterhood. Many of you were there in
those ancient times and you're here still. Most of you are here because karma has pulled you back, because there is personal
karma yet to resolve, but also because you have taken on this commitment to expanding consciousness as your highest truth,
whether you have been able to verbalize that commitment or not. It is a commitment to service, a commitment to bringing love
where there has previously been fear and darkness, a commitment to know yourself and in that knowing to know all beings, to know
the One, a commitment to bring the power of light through on this planet, stabilizing an oasis of light in the Universe. It can
become a place that will beam such radiance that it become a haven of light and then a source of light into the Universe in
which there is darkness.
Love is the only answer to darkness, to hatred, fear, and greed. And you are all learning that each in your own lives. Each
of you was drawn to visit the Casa for some personal reason, sometimes physical sometimes emotional, sometimes spiritual,
sometimes you are not clear why you went, just knew you needed to go. On a conscious level that personal reason brought forth
the choice but I think for each of you, if you reflect here, you will see deeply in the soul that commitment of service to the
light that also drew you. This is a brave and a beautiful work we do, this transformation of heavy vibration experience into
light through the power of love.
It is not easy work when there is such strong habit energy around the negative thoughts, and around the heavy vibrations of
the body. Even there is attachment to those as a sense of this is who and what you are! What does it mean to release that heavy
energy and self identification to it, and be light? Some people liken it to the experience of free fall in outer space, letting
go of everything that you thought you were, to allow what you truly are. It includes letting go of all your old attachments,
belief systems, and whatever negativity there has been.
So you were drawn to the Casa. The wonderful beings there that you call the Entities, are very much of the brother/sisterhood
of light. They have two commitments because one cannot separate the relative and the ultimate level of being. On the relative
level their commitment is to the alleviation of the immediate human suffering, to healing the body, healing the mind. On the
ultimate level the commitment is to help shepherd this entire passage of the earth plane into the light. When you sit in the
current, you are joining in a vast circle of beings, not only those who sit in the current room, but many more beings. Do you
know the Buddhist word 'bodhisattva'? This is a very loving being who often has no karmic need to come back to the earth but
comes back only for love, only for the alleviation of suffering. Included in that circle of bodhisattvas are those who still may
have some karmic reason to come to the earth, personal karma to resolve. Those whose highest intention is not just for the
comfort of self but truly in service to all beings, to learn these lessons of love and manifest them in the self so you may
bring them more fully out into the world, these are bodhisattvas. Some of you see that service to all beings in the Universe but
just service one to another is enough. The other represents all beings. So when you sit in the current you join that vast circle
of great bodhisattvas, including great masters who are beyond human karma. You join in that great circle of love and you bring
forth your own commitment to serve that love.
Somebody asked me once is this not like dangling a carrot in front of the horse to make it go, to say well we'll give you
physical healing but really your goal should be enlightenment in the highest sense. I think not because one seems to trick the
horse get him to go with the carrot when really want him to pull the cart, but nobody is tricking you. The deepest truths are
available to you- it's fine to visit the Casa because you have a cancer or a bad knee and you want it to be healed. But nobody
can go there and come away untouched by the love and light that's there, so the inner transformation is left to your free will,
to embrace it or to let it go. For those who let it go, it's not a problem, nobody condemns you. But most beings do not let it
go; it's as if a spark is lit and even if it takes several lifetimes it will wake up in your soul eventually and awaken you to
your deepest truth. So this is the bigger picture of the work at the Casa, work in which you are all involved.
It's one thing to be taught the experience of love and another to learn how to bring forth that love even when there's fear.
Thus, in one way or another, in one articulation or another, we enter into a series of teachings that are ancient to the earth.
These were the core teachings taught in the Essene community, the core teachings taught in many Native American and other such
cultures, merely articulated in different ways. I want to introduce you to these teachings in my own articulation of them.
You'll find they are not new to you but perhaps you've never considered them in this precise a way before. (See transcript,
The Trainings, for Aaron's original articulation of these trainings given in Abadiania.)
Here are three sets of thought, not linear but simultaneous. Number 1, 6, and 11 are similar, but at different levels. Number
2, 7, 12 are similar. You do not live through these in a linear way but you go back and forth deepening in one which leads you
to an understanding of another. The first three are an understanding of the physical, emotional, and mental bodies. You all have
four bodies- physical, emotional, mental, and spirit. They are increasingly heavy or light. The physical body has the heaviest
vibration the spirit body has the highest, clearest vibration.
Objects come to the physical body, for example a cramp in the leg or an itch, a pleasant or unpleasant scent. Whatever is
experienced by the body will either be pleasant or unpleasant or sometimes neutral. What happens on the precise level of
experience is that the sense organ, the eye for example, touches an object, like the green scarf here, and seeing-consciousness
arises. For there to be seeing-consciousness there needs to be an eye organ and an object. If the organ and object are present,
consciousness will arise. For Barbara there cannot be hearing consciousness because the ear organ doesn't work, so even if there
is sound there is no hearing consciousness. When the consciousness arises it will either be pleasant, unpleasant, or neutral.
There will be a perception. For example, perception of the color green. Old conditioning will enter in. If you have very
unpleasant associations with a certain visual object, or even a little negativity about it, aversion and then certain stories
come into your consciousness, such as, "This is good, this is bad".
I use Barbara's experience here. Her dog sometimes moves his bowels sometimes in the backyard and once spring comes there is
a lot of dog feces to pick up. It's been there for several months covered by the snow, and lost any odor. Barbara must clean it
up. The mind says 'dog shit', the nose expects there to be something unpleasant, she starts to gag. But it was simply the
remnants of the food the dog had eaten, that had wintered on the ground that had no smell. So I asked her just to pick it up,
not to think of 'dog shit' and its associations but simply to think of the nurturing of the dog and its digestive process, to
think of it as that which could be turned into the soil as manure. The unpleasantness leaves, the story, 'I don't want to do
this' leaves. Gagging ends.
Your usual experience is that you don't observe how consciousness, associations, aversion or grasping come up in your mind.
You say, 'I like this,' 'I don't like that' and you build stories of good and bad. The stories include who you think you are.
You do the same thing with emotions and thoughts. Often with the thoughts and emotions there's not much kindness to yourselves.
If you are walking on the ground barefoot and you step on a tack there's going to be pain, there's going to be blood. You don't
think there shouldn't be blood or pain do you? You would stop and pull the tack out. Are there any of you who would condemn the
foot? You would be loving to the foot. When you step on the so called emotional tack, that is you walk into a room and somebody
says something rude to you and anger comes up, most of you think, 'I shouldn't be angry.' This is not kindness! So you judge the
anger, you condemn yourself for having anger, you say 'I won't have anger' and that 'I won't' feel the contraction in that 'I
won't' is just more anger? So when anger arises you practice anger. It's almost funny because you have learned so well, most
of you in this circle, to be gentle and caring to the physical body but not so much to the emotional and mental body. You build
a story of the self upon it, self-identification: this is the angry one, or perhaps the unworthy one, or the one who must be
strong and be the helper. The particular story is conditioned by your own past experiences and it becomes your image of who you
think you are.
The first three trainings take the physical, mental and emotional bodies and ask you to regard how a physical sensation
arises (knowing sensation, sense organ and object touching), how an emotion arises, (seeing anger consciousness or sadness
consciousness, for example), how a thought arises (seeing perhaps planning, or remembering consciousness) and to know these have
arisen out of conditions. I am responsible to what has arisen. If anger has arisen, I am responsible not to use it in a way to
harm others, but I don't have to build a self-identification around it. The learning of this is necessary for your graduation
from this plane.
In my teaching I use a system in which I define what I call eight densities. I know I'm giving you a lot of material here.
You don't need to hold onto the words or the details; your heart will hold onto the deeper part of it.
First density is mineral and gas. Second density is vegetable and animal, all the way up to your pets who are at the top end
of second density. They are learning awareness and then self-awareness, which is the end of second density. Then the being
incarnates into a third density, human form. The primary learnings of third density are faith and love. You are ready to
graduate from third density, when you are ready to move into fourth density which is presently a fully telepathic non-material
form of existence. However as the earth goes through this transition fourth density will be material, you will have bodies and
still be fourth density beings. Are you ready to be telepathic? Some of you might say 'of course, it sounds like fun!' but think
about it. Have you had any thoughts today that you ashamed of? Did you look at somebody and say 'oh I don't like her shoes, or
the color of her hair'. Would you want the person to hear that thought from you or is there some shame about it? Do you want to
hear it from others/ What if somebody else had a thought about you, 'I don't like the way she looks,' are you able to hear that
and not take it personally? You still build a self and the story of a self around thoughts and what is heard or seen. You don't
see that this thought, not liking the color of my hair, has come out of this person's conditioning; it doesn't mean there is
anything wrong with my hair, simply this person's conditioning gave rise to this thought. It's not a good or bad thought, just a
thought, arisen from conditions. If a mosquito bites your arm and it gives rise to an itch, it's just an itch, not good, not
bad, though perhaps uncomfortable.
The nature of the mental body is to give rise to thoughts. As long as you create a story of a self there is a lot of turmoil.
Nobody is ever going to love you all the time. Nobody is going to hate you all the time either. You can't please everybody all
the time no matter how hard you try. When someone is displeased, then you think 'I'm a failure'. But sometimes you are going to
displease people. The nature of these trainings is to remove the self-story and know it has just arisen from conditions.
What you're after is equanimity with all of this. By equanimity I mean a state of ease and peace that knows deeply, objects
arise out of conditions, they may be pleasant or unpleasant, but I do not need to contract my energy around them and build this
self story around them. This non-contraction of energy is a key as we will talk more deeply about this afternoon in relation to
the light and work of the Casa.
You know the experience when something pushes at you and your energy contracts. Something can push at you without
contraction. Hal I'm going to ask you to help me here, come forward if you would please. I want you to push, push me (Hal pushes
and Aaron pushes back).
A: I'm pushing back, experiencing contraction. Now push me again (pushes again and Aaron does not push but redirects Hal's
energy so it just moves past Aaron). No contraction, can you see that? Just letting it go by; it's just a push. In this moment
he's pushing because I asked him to but so often the world pushes you when you haven't asked for it. The issue is not whether it
pushes you or not but how you relate to it. Please push again. If I take it personally and become tense, thinking, "no don't
push", there is a lot of contraction. If I don't take it personally, it's just a push. There's ease, there's no contraction.
It doesn't matter what the catalyst is, you can learn to dance with it in this way. This is what the first three trainings
are about, finding that spaciousness and ease with the arising of the physical, mental, and emotional bodies were you to not
take these objects personally but know they have arisen from conditions and learn how to dance with them. Thank you my brother.
(Hal sits)
However there is still a self doing this. In the fourth and fifth trainings you begin to see more deeply into the nature of
non-duality, perhaps have a glimpse in your spiritual practice of what that non-dual means, although it's still conceptual. When
you come back in the sixth through tenth trainings, the sixth to eighth trainings, you are working again with the physical,
emotional, and mental bodies, but there is not so much of a self doing it. So at first 'I will not react' but there is still the
'self'. But as you move deeper into the experience even at a conceptual level of non-self, you start to ask yourself 'who is not
going to react?' The 'I' starts to fall out of it and you find that love holds open that spaciousness. The tenth training takes
you deeper into the direct experience of the non-dual. You become more stable in that experience. I spoke earlier of the fact
there is a relative and a ultimate level to your experience in every moment. These are reversed a bit, I don't know if any of
you are coming tomorrow, but my intention in tomorrow's talk is to speak of the angel and the earthsuit. The earthsuit is the
relative level of the human, the angel is the Divine level, and they are simultaneous. You cannot hide in the Divine level, in
denial of the human experience, and you cannot simply muck around in the human experience and loose the awareness of the Divine
level, you most hold both. That is what we are going to focus on tomorrow so I will not go further today.
At the tenth level of training you come into a direct, profound experience of the non-dual. You begin to stabilize in that
experience so that you begin to be able to live as what I call a pole: feet planted in the earth, head in the heavens, and to be
maybe not constantly, but most frequently, conscious of the simultaneity of both the human and the supramundane experience. You
begin to relate to negative energy around you, not from the brain but from the heart directly. It becomes a habit to relate from
the heart. When something negative occurs around you, you respond with love. Instead of the brain having to say, "What am I
suppose to do with this? Let's look at the instruction sheet," the heart knows how to respond. Then the eleventh to fifteenth
levels of training take it deeper from that place of 'knowing' how to respond; practicing it until it's quite perfect. You can
see that you go up and down with this. Some catalyst might challenge you so you find your way back at the top, first five
levels. Something really terrifies you, touches you, and you react. In other areas you may go deeper, truly being able to hold
that non-dual reality.
As we will discuss this afternoon, the physical body is heavy. The cellular structure of the physical body is water. The
water becomes distorted because of the contractedness that comes up in the physical, emotional, and mental bodies. Part of the
Casa's work is to clarify that water in the cellular tissue in the body but unless you do the inner work you cannot hold that
clear water because each time there is contraction around the contraction, there will be distortion.
Notice I do not say, "Each time there is contraction," but "Contraction around the contraction." I hit the knee and the foot
jerks. It's just a contraction. BOO! Contraction. It still resonates in the body a bit but are you holding a contraction around
it or is there ease? Breathing in the body contracts, and then releases. These are natural contractions, part of the ebb and
flow of your being. If I feel fear and I am aware of the fear, of tension; breathing out I smile to the tension releasing it.
There is no ongoing contraction around it. The problem is not contraction, the problem is that the brain kicks in, old habit
energy kicks in, and the contraction is held and lodged in the body, lodged in the cellular tissue, lodged in the karma. Then
you think, "I've got to fight with this, I've got to get rid of this contraction"
more contraction.
So the Casa work helps to bring forth the clarity of the body, of all the bodies; helps you to feel that state of greater
ease, joy, spaciousness to feel the possibilities of that, but then you come home and you've got to do the work with it, because
contraction is going to come back again. How are you going to relate to it? Can there be more kindness? As in picking the tack
out of the foot, can you begin to relate to your emotions and thoughts with the same degree of love and kindness? The wonderful
thing here is that you do not do this work just for yourself, although that may be your first perception. As you start to know
that you are part of all that is, you know you do this work for all beings.
There are many supports and one of the primary ones is the recognition is, "I'm not doing this alone or just for myself, but
I am part of this entire brother/sisterhood of light." The intention is not just to your own ease and comfort but literally to
eradicate suffering from the Universe, to bring joy and peace to all beings, physical and discarnate, all beings on every plane.
That may sound like a big ambition and yet all of you have undertaken that at some level and that's why you are here.
(break)
So now a period for your questions, questions related to what I spoke of this morning. I will be talking in more depth about
the Casa this afternoon, about the details and the functioning there. Yes, you may ask a personal question; that's fine.
Q: In the first part you mentioned pain and suffering and it seems like you think they could be separated and one is a matter
of training and one is a matter of healing ourselves. So I wanted to know the difference between pain and suffering?
A: Yes I understand the question my sister. Let's try an experiment together, all of you. Hold out an arm, straight out, palm
up. Just breathing holding the arm out. It begins to grow a bit heavy yes? Stay with it. Be aware as the discomfort comes, be
aware of it. A slight ache perhaps. Just the physical sensation, for most of you there is not really a lot of pain just a slight
discomfort. If we put this in your hand you'll feel the pain must faster (placing a heavy book on her face up palm). Do you feel
it? Now bring awareness to the physical sensation and to contracting, disliking the sensation and contracting around it. Can you
feel that they are two different things? There is a physical sensation of weight and achiness and there is an inner movement of
'I don't want that'.
The physical sensation at this point is not real pain just subtle discomfort but it would turn into pain if you kept the arm
out for a long time. Watch the way mind shifts from the physical sensation itself into that 'don't want this.' That grasping is
the root of suffering. Sometimes there will be pain; this is how your bodies are. You cannot avoid physical pain. And really you
cannot avoid emotional pain; loss, sadness. Are you feeling the heaviness of the arm now? (yes) Can you feel the distinction?
The physical sensation is just the physical sensation. How do you relate to it? It will be in the habitual way you each have
with discomfort. Say this with me. "Breathing in I am aware of tension in the shoulder, throbbing, breathing out I smile to it."
See how your experience of sensation changes as you bring a sense of open heartedness and ease, real love for this part of your
body. Flood with the whole shoulder with loving kindness, with light. The physical sensation does not go away but can you feel
how much more capacity there is to be with it? (yes) There can be ease with it. It came out of conditions and will go. Nobody
has to fix it. See how you can be with that pain without tension, without fear. You may put your arms down. But when there is
fear and the thought 'I have to fix this, I have to get rid of this' becomes predominant, the whole body contracts around it and
you shift into separateness. Then you are suffering. Does this make it clearer for you?
Q: Would you then say that suffering is the rejection of pain and of love? A: Suffering involves rejection and also involves
grasping, wanting things to be different than they are. Suffering is not in the physical body, suffering is in the mind. When
there is that rejection or grasping, the physical body then contracts creating more physical, emotional, or mental pain.
Sometimes there is a choice about pain, sometimes there's not. In other words, if you step on a tack there is going to be body
pain; if somebody says something mean to you there may be some mental pain. When you move into the place in the heart that says
ahh, so, this is how it is right now the sprained ankle, the cut finger, the mean words you watch the part of the mind that
says 'I don't want this' with a spaciousness and a kindness that does not self identify with it, does not get into that
push-pull fight with it. Simply a physical object has arisen, or a mental object, and then certain repercussions of that object.
You come back to the infinite heart that can hold space for it all. And then there is no suffering.
It would be best for Barbara to tell her own story but I don't want to pull her out of her trance for this. She related to
you how much she suffered around her deafness, so much grasping, so much aversion and it was very difficult for many years. 18
months ago she was in a bad accident. She refers to it as her surfing accident; struck by a wave and thrown off her surfboard
into the bottom of the sea, knocked unconscious, many broken bones, especially in the face. There was bleeding in both eyes, a
very serious decline in vision. Vision of course is very important to her; it is her primary way of access to the world since
she has no hearing. She was terrified. I will not say she did not suffer but she had learned enough about suffering to be able
to take this experience and know, "This is how it is. I cannot escape the experience of diminished vision. This is how it is,
maybe for now, maybe for ever. But I don't have to suffer."
So she was able very quickly, maybe within a week or two, to shift herself out of that experience of acute suffering. She was
at her cabin in the country with Hal for the weekend. She went out on the porch to meditate one morning, the first morning at
dawn, and everything was blurry in this beloved, familiar forest. She began to cry, "I can't live like this, I can't stand it."
So I asked her just to close her eyes, still herself and meditate. She was feeling once again so cut off as she had been with
her deafness, now not able to see, not able to read, hardly even able to lip read. Strong fear came, and despair because she
loved the visual beauty around her that now seemed taken away. So she meditated for a while. Then the sun came up a bit over the
trees. She opened her eyes and it was exquisite; because of the shift in her vision, everything was softened. Light streamed
through the trees, with a lack of detail but everything soft; the quality of light was something she had never seen before with
the eyes the way they had been. It was beautiful. And she stopped and suddenly she was full of gratitude. "These eyes still see,
they see differently. As long as I'm attached to seeing things as they use to be I will suffer. When I can be present seeing
things as they are now I need not suffer."
Last January the Entities were able to stop the bleeding in the left eye and that eye has returned to 20/20 vision with aid
of her glasses. The right eye vision is quite poor. The Entities were able to help the eye a lot and then the doctor in the
medical center in Michigan, said laser surgery was necessary but the procedure diminished the vision again so she was literally
blind in this eye, seeing only light and dark. But I think in January when she returns to the Casa there'll be an improvement in
vision again.
But what she realized is whether she can see or not see is not what's most important. If she can see that will be good; she
wants to be able to see. She chooses to see, and yet, if it's necessary not to see there will be some way to communicate, she
will find some way to live with that. It's not what's predominant here. Sadness for the loss yes, but not suffering. Being with
things as they are with an open heart. Over lunchtime you can talk with her about this experience if you wish. Does that answer
your question? (yes)
Q: You talked about the levels of training and levels of being this morning. How do you know where you are and where you
should go to learn to move forward?
A: Are you talking here about the levels of consciousness? (yes) Again, it's not linear. There are times when all of you are
in that mythical and magical consciousness, very basic consciousness. Times when all of you are in a relative consciousness.
Just seeing and experiencing from the physical senses with a barricade, thinking there is nothing beyond that. There are times
when each of you shift into vision logic and into psychic consciousness. There are probably times when each of you experience
the Christ / Buddha consciousness or even non-dual and cosmic consciousness. What's important is what is the highest stable
level that you can maintain throughout life experience.
It's easy to rest in that non-dual consciousness at the Casa, in the current room, feeling all that energy around you. It's
much harder when you are having a disagreement with somebody. You just keep remembering the possibility of living from the
higher consciousness. You slip you move into the fight, and into rational consciousness or even magical consciousness wishing
that person to go away and then you recognize the contraction and you know this is not where you want to be. You open your
eyes and you look and suddenly instead of seeing an enemy you see a person who is suffering and the heart responds by saying,
"May you have well being. May you be happy and peaceful." It doesn't mean that give way to the other's views if they are
antithetical to your values, but you also see that the other is suffering; your heart opens to the other and in that moment of
heart opening you move right into the Christ consciousness. You keep practicing with this, working to become more stable in what
you know of the higher levels of consciousness. You know when you are caught in the small self and the ego, or when you are in
that more expanded state. You practice until you rest more stably in that expanded state if that is your commitment, and move
on.
Q: I wanted to get back to the pain and suffering. So what I am understanding is by accepting the pain, its softening our
suffering. So if we can accept our pain that eases the suffering?
A: It is both about acceptance my sister, releasing the fear and grasping of how things should be and being fully present
with how things are. But it's also about the shift into the ultimate reality and the simultaneous holding of both. This arm
hurts on one level but on another level there is no pain. Do you understand what I mean by that? For example, anger might arise,
and judgment that there shouldn't be anger. There is not acceptance that anger is present in this mind and body right now, but
judgment, mind and body contracted, wanting to get rid of the anger. There is suffering. With acknowledgment, "This is what is
present. I will take care of it, see that it does not do harm, but I will not reject it, I will not hate it," right there is
compassion. The anger is still present but also compassion.
Compassion, loving kindness, these are the most powerful forces. You do not have to get rid of the anger to find that which
is not angry- can you see that they exist simultaneously? May I have a piece of paper, just plain paper- an unwrinkled perfect
sheet of paper, yes? (Aaron wrinkles it, wads it up then opens it out and displays it.) Where did the unwrinkled sheet go? Can
you see it's still there? It has wrinkles and the unwrinkled sheet is right here. Where would it go? Your innate loving kindness
is there with the anger. That which has the infinite capacity to be present with the pain is right there along with the
rejection of pain. You don't have to get rid of the rejection of pain to find that place of acceptance. Rather you acknowledge
the aversion to the pain and know the simultaneous presence of the infinite heart that can hold the space for the pain. They are
both there together. As long as you think it's got to be one or the other, you get into a war: get rid of this so I can get
that! And then there is just more contraction and more suffering. Does that answer your question? (yes)
Q: Isn't there some way to accept the possibility I mean, I think that we all get so caught up in anger, or the grasping or
whatever, that we forget the possibility of that piece of paper, that non-duality is there, so what I am taking away, what seems
to resonate with me, is the word possibility. That I should remember that.
A: What you are asking is
?
Q: I forget that I can move from that space; I forget the space exists.
A: Yes. You are amnesiacs. You all have amnesia. With your birth you accept the condition of amnesia. You wake up and you are
in this world and then say who am I, where am I where did I come from? You look at the faces around you, some of them smiling,
some of them frowning, who are they? It all feels so familiar but you can't remember it who am I, how did I get here? You
agreed to the amnesia with the birth. You agreed because if you remembered that you were spirit from that moment of birth then
your life would be the expression of self-discipline. If something was difficult you would say, "No, I am spirit; I will do it
this way," and push through. But you are learning faith and love, not force and will.
Imagine, all of you, that you slipped on the ice outside today. As you were coming in the door you each hit your heads. Other
people helped you sit up. You came inside and said, "Where was I going? Is this the house I was going to? What am I doing here?
I have amnesia who am I? I don't remember who I am." What we are teaching you resonates with your truth so you decide to stay,
but if your experience was different you might listen and say, "This is not for me; is there a bar somewhere? Is there a sports
arena, this is not where I came to be." You are finding through your experience what fits, who you are.
What if instead of coming into this house, you were downtown, in the town square and you hit your head. You opened your eyes
and woke up. Concerned people surround you asking if you are okay. There is a bruise here but yes, you're ok. The people leave
and suddenly you say, "Who am I, where was I going?" You look around the square and there is a church, there's a bar, there's a
coffee shop, a movie theatre, a sports arena, a meditation center, a yoga center, a park. Where would you go? H, where would you
go?
H: Here, right here, to be with you.
A: Asks another, where would you go? You don't know that I'm here; would you go into the meditation center, the church, or
the park? Anybody drawn to the ice skating rink? The sledding hill?
R: The beach
A: The beach. The beach, yes. Where else? Anybody going to the movie theatre? You are moved by a deeper truth. The heart
knows where to go, and you are led by your heart. You find the deepest truth within the heart. Other questions?
Q: Why do so many people have to suffer with loneliness?
A: Many are people who came into the incarnation with the strong pre-incarnative determination to remember their innate
connection with all that is. The catalyst of experienced loneliness and separation spurs you into an inquiry. Is anything really
separate and if not, why is it experienced so intensely. Then you begin to understand the relative situation of the lone human
and the ultimate situation of interbeing. The experience of loneliness pushes you to investigate. You are suffering so you look
for a way out. To learn, it is not necessary to suffer, only to pay attention. But often you do not pay attention until there is
suffering.
Barbara spoke before of her experience of losing her hearing. She felt as if she was separated from the world by a glass
window. Everybody else on the other side talking to each other and she was cut off from it by the lack of sound. There was
intense loneliness and she asked herself, "Despite the deepest meditations that teach me we are all connected, I experience this
loneliness. How do I resolve this incongruity, this paradox?" This is what led her to go into the deeper levels to find and know
that place of connection so deeply that she could not loose it.
Most of you who experience this kind of loneliness have this intention. The difficulty is that you get caught up in the
loneliness thinking it's a problem, something that has to be fixed. There are no problems; there are only situations that need
your loving attention. When you relate to it as a problem, you relate with a contracted energy that pulls you more and more into
separation; separation from others and separation from yourself. When you recognize you are contracting around this "push" of
loneliness and trying to push back, you recognize another choice. You may dance with this push I call loneliness, just be
present and know the experience. In the physical body, and in the mind, know this direct experience without rejecting the
experience. Ask the question 'who is lonely'? Can you find any 'who' here, any separate individual? Yes, on the relative plane
certainly you are a separate individual but on the ultimate level you are not. This experience "feeling lonely," came up in this
mind and body and we respect and recognize that with kindness. And yet at a deeper level, that 'who' is feeling it can lead us
into the heart of connection when we see this is the pain of all beings. In that moment you know connection. It's very powerful.
Q: How do we heal the pain?
A: Another of Barbara's stories. Many years ago she had a severe leg infection; the leg was very swollen, very painful. She
had been in the hospital for perhaps weeks. They were trying different antibiotics but the drugs were not working. The infection
was moving up the leg. They began to talk about the possibility that if they could not find an appropriate antibiotic they were
going to have to remove the leg so the infection would not move up into the body. She found herself cutting off the leg in her
mind, rejecting the leg, not embracing but rejecting it. Of course it could not heal because it was not brought into the heart.
She was feeling sorry for herself and also experiencing excruciating pain and the medication they were giving her did not
eliminate the pain; for some reason they were concerned to give her too much pain killer medication.
In the middle of one night they wheeled an elderly woman into the bed next to hers. As they were working on her, the curtain
between the beds got pushed aside and Barbara could see that the woman's leg was freshly amputated and that the other leg had
been previously amputated. One with a raw wound and one a healed wound; no feet. Barbara sat meditating in semi-darkness on her
bed, not behind the curtain because the curtain was pushed aside, but next to the curtain. In meditation she so clearly saw
beings all over the world who that day had lost a leg to war, to accident, to illness, and the heart opened in compassion for
all beings that sought healing. Suddenly she realized, "This is healing not about my leg; there is just this one leg to heal for
us all." So this woman's conditioned awakened the compassion in her.
The compassionate heart is able to hold it all, no longer "my pain", but "our pain". As soon as you make that shift, there is
healing. Not surprisingly the new antibiotic began to work, the infection subsided, the leg healed. Interestingly, when she
awakened in the morning, the next bed was empty again.
How do you make that shift from "my pain, "which statement is steeped in fear, to "our pain," which articulation is merged
with compassion? It becomes part of the habit energy. If you have the habit energy for fear then your pain becomes 'oh, my pain,
fear, how will I get rid of it'? As you work harder to nourish the compassionate heart, to watch yourself moving into fear and
work with it, there is space. Say, "No, I know where this fear is heading and will not follow the stories it offers. Breathing
in, I am aware of fear; breathing out I smile to fear. I hold that fear in a spacious and loving container."
Right there with fear is that which is not afraid but if all you can see is the fear, you can't see that which is not afraid.
You absorb into the fear and become myopic. As soon as you remember fearlessness is right here, love is right here, you know you
don't have to get rid of the fear, the anger to open to these, they are right here. This is your birth-right, this is your
choice. It doesn't mean that the fear goes away, only it's no longer all-powerful because there's a big container for it.
I like this image and it may help some of you. Imagine yourselves as you are sitting here, sitting in a small box, each chair
in a box. I come into the room with a box full of tarantulas. approach your box and I'm going to put the tarantula in your box.
Can you stay in it? Of course not. Now imagine yourself in a room that's about 10 by 10, a big box. And I approach with a
tarantula. Maybe you could stay in for a second or two. I put it on the ground, you watch, as soon as it starts to scurry toward
you, you hop out. Now imagine yourself is a space three times the size of this room with no furniture in it, a bare open space.
I come with the tarantula and I put it on the ground in the far corner. Can you see that you would be able to stay present with
it? If it headed toward you, you'd get up and move to the other side of the room. You'd live with it; we'd take it out at night
so you could sleep; we'd put it back the next morning. You'd live with it. You'd get used to it, you'd get to know it. There
would be a spaciousness with it. Eventually you might even reach out and embrace it.
This is what you must develop with that you have judged as negative in yourself: fear, anger, greed, impatience, whatever it
may be. You create that bigger container not because you 'should,' not from that force to fix yourself, for there is nothing
broken, nothing you need to fix; but from a place of loving kindness that knows your work here is to learn compassion. Your own
difficult emotions are the most potent teacher you have. Here is anger, "Thank you anger, now I can practice compassion." What a
different attitude from anger as enemy.
Q: I've been listening to you carefully and I have been searching for a way to establish for myself what teachings you are
giving us today, and the word that keeps coming to me is acceptance. That the first stage is acceptance then enabling the heart
to open. I'm wondering whether or not I'm on the right track?
A: My brother I would say that on the relative level the first stage is acceptance and on the ultimate level the only need is
to recognize the innate compassion of the already open heart. The human needs to accept, the spirit has nothing it needs to
accept. There is nothing separate from it, nothing that frightens it. This must be learned in sequence to some degree, so there
must be some level of acceptance and easing of contraction before you can move to that place of resting in spirit, resting in
love. But do not think of acceptance only, because acceptance is a doing and the doing keeps you trapped in the relative human.
Q: How can you have compassion for people when you feel they are possibly not respecting your space and you are vulnerable
yourself and you want to have compassion but you also want to learn how to protect yourself at the same time?
A: There is a misunderstanding of compassion, my sister, that thinks of compassion as weak, spineless. Compassion is strong,
compassion know how to say no. You are all habituated to think that only anger can say no. Love knows how to say no. When you
say no it will come from both places, your work is to see that right there with the anger there is compassion, there is
kindness, there is love. Allow the no, for it's not kind to let somebody abuse you. You must say no to abuse. Love says no. It
takes practice. The confusion is that the anger can be so strong you almost see the anger, and feel its heat. You lose track of
the possibility of love. Then you may judge yourself for not being more compassionate, or even for being too spineless to speak
your truth. However it comes, it is still judgment and contracts you further.
Let's try something else together. Hold your hands six inches in front of you face and wiggle the fingers. Here's anger
wiggling its way around (wiggling one finger), here is doubt (wiggling another) , here is some pain in the belly
(wiggling a
third finger) , here is confusion (fourth finger) , here is hate (fifth finger wiggling). They are all dancing around; focus on
them. Now while they keep wiggling look through; look right up there to Barbara. If you can see me, so much the better. You
don't loose sight of the fingers do you? You break through into that vast spaciousness that was always there, but the fingers
remain. Return focus to the fingers now; broad focus, then fine focus again. See how you loose the spaciousness immediately when
you focus in on the fingers? Break through again.
The anger or the belly ache remain but there is also that vast space. You are so use to focusing in on one pain or emotion
and making it into a problem that needs to be fixed. You forget that you can rest in that spaciousness, rest in the loving
heart, rest in truth, rest in awareness. Much of what you have to learn is acceptance but equally important is moving into
spaciousness. Look at the objects, people here: one person, two persons, three persons, you don't deny they are separate people.
But between them is space! Does anybody see the space? Look through the fingers, there is space, there are fingers in the space.
What is the predominant thing is this room? Space. We take it for granted; we don't see all that space.
Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out, breathe in pause, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out, pause. Breathe in,
pause. Breathe out, pause. Breathe in, pause. Breathe out, pause Can you feel that space? The breath arises and falls away
within the space.
(bells rings) Listen to the bell. The room is not silent, little movements of people, perhaps sounds from outside but there's
the spaciousness of no speech, semi-silent, then the sound of the bell. Stay with the bell until it dies away. Go with it into
the space. (rings bell again) Can you feel that space? This is one expression of the Ground of Being, what you might call the
Unconditioned or Divine. In this conditioned world, objects that arise out of conditions are impermanent; they pass away. A
physical object, a thought, when the conditions are present they arise, when the conditions cease, they cease. Beyond that there
is what we would call the Unconditioned, or call it God. It is that which exists without any conditions, That Which Is. The
Native American's call it, grandmother awareness, That Which Is. You live your lives forgetting that Heart, and forgetting that
you are That, you are not these thoughts, you are the Divinity. This is the path of remembering, wake up from your amnesia.
(lunch break)
Afternoon-
B: I am talking about the use of the tuning forks. In meditation, Dr Oswaldo Cruz has been the Entity I've been
able to hear the way I hear Aaron. He's not always there, like Aaron is, but when I ask a question if he's there I get an
answer, so he's the one who gave me these instructions. I don't think they originated with him; He was only transmitting the
information, telling what the Entities wanted me to do. I've also experienced Dr. Oswaldo and Dr Augusto energy's a lot working
directly with the eye. But I don't hear Dr. Augusto in the same way. It's a different frequency; I can't really pick it up.
I asked last January asking am I doing this right? I came in with a set of tuning forks as Dr. Cruz had specified the year
before and demonstrated what I wad doing. The entity speaking through Joao said I was doing it just right keep going, so I'm
continuing. I sound each one and chant "ohm" with it as I hold it near my ear, trying to match the tone. I also hold each fork
stem on the chakra with which that tone connects and feel that energy and vibration in the body.
I have no idea where it's going; I'm just doing it. I know the ears are capable of hearing again, I know it may not be
through normal channels. What I've understood is that the tuning forks have two purposes: one is for the whole body to learn to
hear. We don't just hear with our ears we hear with our whole bodies, we see with our whole bodies. The intention is to open
everything in the body that can hear, to hear.
The other Aaron says he spoke a bit about this, this morning the vibrational frequency of the water in the cells has a
low vibration where there is unhealthy tissue. That water has a strong distortion to it. The image that the entities have given
me is this. There is a big gap where the nerves are dead. When there is only a small gap such as for somebody with a spinal cord
injury that is just a small break, they can grow the nerves back together. But with this bigger gap they can't reconnect those
dead nerves. They are trying to grow a whole new neural network. The idea is that the higher the vibrational frequency of the
water in the cells will support the growth of those nerves. No knowing if it's going to be possible just trying it.
It's a very pleasant exercise. Of course in doing the exercise I'm raising the vibrational frequency of the whole body and,
the accident aside, my body has not been healthier in a long time. Damaged tissue healed amazingly quickly, the broken bones and
various things. There is good energy in the body, the body is feeling well. So all of this tuning seems to be helping.
We tune in many ways, through sound, through what we take into the body. This is why the Casa water is so valuable. It has a
high vibrational frequency; we keep taking this high frequency water into ourselves, into the cells, and the body discharges the
lower frequency water and releases it. We keep replacing water with something that's increasingly pure and of higher vibration.
Through our spiritual work we hold our whole energy fields, the physical, mental, and emotional bodies at a higher and higher
vibrational frequency that is able to support the continuation of this high energy water in the cells. So it becomes more
stable. We don't have to keep replenishing as constantly but the natural level of the vibration of the water in the cells raises
and raises and raises. Why not? (laughter)
In the beginning I saw the grasping, wanting to hear again; now it's really relaxed. I still want and intend to hear again
and I really can feel that possibility of hearing. But there's not any grasping at it any more. However spirit wants to use this
body is fine. They hear my intention, aspiring to hear again. Aspiring to hear all of those beautiful sounds, the silence of
falling snow, birds singing in the spring, my children's voices. Hal and I are going to be grandparents in April. I want to hear
that baby's voice, I didn't get to hear my sons' voices. I want to hear my grandbaby's voice. So, just opening toward that
possibility, we really can create the world around us but we can't always control it. I would not say at all costs I want to
hear again, just if it's for the good of all beings then this is one purpose, one intention.
Somebody asked me where was I this morning while Aaron was talking. He's used this image. I'm driving my car, this body, this
vehicle. He asks me please may I use the body in service to all beings, in the spirit of love. And he tells me he will cherish
and respect the body and return it unharmed. He offers some gratitude for my willingness to share the body. I say yes, you may
use the body. And I repeat this formula, in service to all beings, in the spirit of love, in the service of Jesus, for all that
which I hold dear, I offer this body. And then I make the statement, "This body is consecrated to the light and may not be used
for any other purpose." That's a way of protecting the body at this point of crossover, where the body temporarily, just for a
fraction of a second is vacant, and something could come in if it were not protected. So by the force of that statement, that
this body and all it's voices are consecrated to the light, I offer a protection around the body and almost in that instant as I
say that, I feel Aaron come into the body.
He says, figuratively, I get out of the car and sit under a tree. He gets in, drives off and does what he needs to do with
the body. When he's finished he comes back, nudges me and says, "I return the body." What I experience is an energy presence. I
shift back into the body. Until then I'm just sitting under that tree.
He's recently been teaching something different; When I get out of the car to allow him the driver seat, I can get back in
the passenger seat so I can have some awareness of what's going on. I'm not very good of that. We are just learning this skill
under the entities' tutelage and my tendency is to be a backseat driver. I'm aware of what's going on and I want to offer input.
So for now I better stay under the tree until I can get into the passenger seat and relax and trust him to steer the body.
Channeling is a very powerful spiritual practice. It's taught me about letting go of control. I did not start to channel him
immediately, you know that. At first I developed a trust of him simply speaking to me and teaching me. When I first started
channeling there already was that trust. I knew he would not misuse the body, that he would never use the body to do anything
that was not within my own value system. This next step of more fully giving him the body rather than co-existing in it is just
an extension of that trust. I marvel at Joao's trust to allow so many entities to take over control of the body.
In the very beginning I trusted Aaron but it was myself I didn't trust. What if my own ego came in and distorted this work?
But I saw that didn't happen so I began to trust not only him but myself and relaxed into the process. But I could not have down
this trance channeling, really giving him the body, back then. I had to develop a complete level of trust through so many years
to be able to release the body. But it's a very powerful spiritual practice because so much of what we're all involved in is
releasing the ego, releasing the self identification, 'I am this body, I am this mind'. We are not that. So that's a brief
answers to some of the questions that came to me at lunch time. I'm going to move back into a trance and let Aaron speak.
A: My blessings and love to you, again I greet you in love and in the light. I thank you for your loving presence here, very
high loving energy, to transform this room. I want to address the primary questions that come around about the Casa, the work
there. I know you will have many other questions and I will not talk for too long a time this afternoon, maybe half an hour now,
just to address the basic questions that repeat themselves, and then open the floor of the variety of questions you bring.
I don't know if your eyes were opened or closed but for those of you with eyes open you saw that as I come into Barbara's
body the body jerks, why? I have a much higher vibrational frequency. No matter how much I step down that energy it charges into
the body. I suppose in your electrical terminology you call it surge, a surge of energy that comes in. It is not harmful to this
body, regardless of how it looks. If it were harmful I would not do it. The body receives that energy and the energy settles
into the body. For me it is like putting on a small garment into which I must wiggle myself, a corset! Conversely at the end of
the session when I move out of the body, the body deflates itself somewhat, moving back to the vibrational frequency that is
more natural to it. At that time Barbara often experiences a sense of weakness, not really fatigue, just weakness and
disorientation. Depending on the situation she's in, others may help to support her coming back into a more centered space by
taking her hands, or she will do this work herself with the help of spirit, by moving into meditation, bringing in light,
opening the chakras. Here she works with her inner healing team. So she re-centers in the body for a few minutes and she's ready
to function again.
I am talking here of energy and the affects of energy on the body. Each of you has an energy system. On the ultimate level
the energy, or chakras that support the energy system, are always open and on the relative level sometimes they're closed. When
I use the terms open and closed related to the chakras, picture a chakra spinning as a spinning wheel, and the next chakra
spinning beside it. You understand centrifugal force. If you were to spin a bucket filled with water that had small holes in the
outside the water would force its way out. Can you picture that? If are both spinning the water will come together. In just that
way, if this chakra is open and spinning and that one is open and spinning, this energy extends out from each and they merge.
Then we say the chakra is open, meaning the connection between this one and that one is open. But if this one is spinning and
sending that energy out but the next one is not spinning, there is there's nothing to merge. The one without spin does not
express energy. That is what you call a blockage but blockage is not the precise, correct word. Rather, energy simply doesn't
move; the energy has stagnated.
The work then is to invite the chakras to spin on the relative level, always remembering that on the ultimate level they are
always spinning. This is a concept that is a bit hard to understand. It relates to our wrinkled piece of paper. The wrinkles are
there, or in this case, the chakras are blocked, and the ever perfect sheet of paper is there. We don't loose that openness, but
on the relative plane we can't access it.
Picture a deep, pure, underground spring of water. The water is absolutely pure. It has no contact with the outer levels, its
underground. You can't stick your muddy hand in, it's underground. You can't access it. But it perks up through the soil to the
surface. In that moment when it reaches the surface, this ever-perfect comes into the relative plane; it touches relative
reality and there it can pick up pollution or distortion. Acid rain comes down, dust, the dirt from an animal as it wades in to
drink the water, these all touch that ever-perfect. The water tumbles down the mountainside. Several hundred yards down it
looks quite murky, cattle are there grazing; there is run off from the farm fields. Where is the clear water? If you want a
drink of water you would think you'd have to go back to the spring because this water downhill is polluted. Certainly in
relative reality you will not simply drink because there is pollution in the water but in the ever perfect water is right there.
You only need a filter.
Where would the ever-perfect water be? It's right there. What you are learning is to access that ever-perfect at all times
even with the distortion of relative reality. Your filters are kindness and awareness. The negative emotions come, body
contraction comes, these various distortions come. This is the nature of the human experience. The distortions will become far
less frequent and far less heavy, but still they will come. This is the nature of the human mind and body. Don't concern
yourselves with the distortions. Find the ever-perfect!
This brings me to the current rooms, your entrance to the Casa. Think of the outer room, before the mediums' current room.
You sit there with some agitation perhaps. Then you move into the outer current room, the mediums' current room. The reason for
two current rooms as I see it is this: in the outer room, you are doing much what I described as the work in those trainings.
There is awareness of agitation of the body, of the mind, and there is an increasing level of equanimity with that agitation and
increasingly ability to let it go. Those who sit in that room hold that space of equanimity for those who pass through, so that
those who pass through with their agitation find themselves held in this large container of loving kindness, wherein the
agitation is not despised or there is no attempt to get rid of the agitation but simply it is known for what it is, like a
bubble. The entities support this passage, of course, with high energy vibration and love. It is the room of calming and
release.
When we teach we often carry with us a bottle of children's bubbles. I dip the wand in the bubble solution and blow and the
bubbles float up. Then, pop, pop, pop, pop nothing there. They look solid, in many colors, sizes, but pop, pop. There's a
whole roomful of them, yet they are nothing!
(Someone then produces a small bottle of bubbles) Thank you my sister. (blows bubbles) Perfect. (blows more bubbles) Does
everybody see something solid and do you see something not at all solid, simultaneously? (yes) Nothing there. I wonder if it
could become acceptable to blow bubbles in the outer current room, as a reminder to people that it's all illusion, to let it go,
to let the self fall away. Poof, gone. Thank you. (returns bottle)
The outer current room serves the primary purpose for both those who pass through and those who are sitting there, to deepen
into that knowing, it's all bubbles, all illusion; let it go. Don't build the self and the stories of self upon mind and body
experience. If there is agitation let awareness watch agitation. That which is aware of agitation is not agitated. If there is
fear, that which is aware of fear is not afraid. There is agitation and you rest in that space of non-agitation. Fear and you
rest in that space of fearlessness. Anger and you rest in that space of loving kindness, without having to get rid of the
agitation, fear, or anger. Objects arising and passing away. There is body pain and there is that which is not in pain, that
which can watch the pain with an open heart; being drawn into Oneness thereby.
The inner current room, the Entities current room, is a place where you come to know your connection with all that is. Again
it's just as in these trainings that I've described. Equanimity develops with what arises in the emotional body, the mental body
and then mind moves deeper into an awareness of non separation, non-duality. Resting in non-duality becomes stable. In the
entities' current room, having come through the outer room, either sat there or passed through, there was a releasing of
self-identity with what arises in the heavier bodies. You then come into this space where the current is strong and you feel the
unity of all there is, and more ability to rest in that inter-connection. Some of you feel it more strongly than others as is
appropriate.
This is as the trainings of fifth level, the tenth level, the fifteenth level. Those who are more new to it will only touch
upon this conceptually. Those who have worked with it will deepen into a place where the whole body and ego dissolve and there
is only oneness and connection, no longer a current of separate beings but One, the Divine itself, holding that space. It is
upon the base of that energy, and supported by the subsurface crystals, that the Entities are able to do their work. I am not
suggesting they could not do it without, but it certainly makes it much easier. When we speak in a group like this it is easier,
much easier for me to hold Barbara's body, much easier for Barbara to relax into releasing the body, than when she speaks in a
group of people who are more diverse, perhaps skeptical, more angry. Your high energy helps and supports our work. I know you
have questions and I'm just going to move through some basics here and we'll then go back to your further questions.
Let's move onto what happens in that inner room. First of course one or another of the Entities moves into Medium Jo
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